Remembering

Over the past couple of years I've had a few friends that were close to me just kind of walk out of my life. Although some were for the better I've been thinking a lot about the "what if's." I know that it happened for the better and I know it would have had to happen sooner or later; but lately I've been looking back at everything that we would do and it just makes me wonder what would have happened if we both would have chosen differently. I look back at the pictures and I remember how much we cared about each other, how we would talk all the time and never get bored, we would laugh all the time and just do random things together, how he would tell me everything that he was feeling, and overall just how natural it felt being around each other. Sometimes I wonder how he's doing, and not just that fake "Oh I'm good" but the actual how he's doing. I honestly really do miss him, but I think more than anything I miss the memories we would create. Even though I would have wanted to stay friends forever, even if it hurt me, I knew it was time to move on. Although I may never know how it would have been like if we would have chosen differently, I know it is a friendship I will never forget because it was a moment in my life in which this friendship was essential and which I learned from.